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I dreamed about you today. You were just staring at me just like before. I wish we had a conversation, But I guess time was too short. You were wearing your favorite pants and the pink polo shirt I got you.  You looked the same as we were celebrating our 7th anniversary.  You looked a bit sad, was it because I am sad too?  I always look back at the time and just wish that you are still here with us.  Am I keeping you? Am I selfish?  I try my best to get better. To miss you less but I guess it's impossible anytime soon. Just like what I always say, you left such a big void in my heart.  I miss you hon.  I love you always. 

Another day passed with you. I continue to miss you and think about the moments with you. How does one move on from this emptiness..this loneliness? How do you expect me to move on from this?  I am so sad and just as a try to forget the hurt, at night as I try to fall as sleep I just continue to wish that I get to dream about you.  I just that will be my wish from day until the day we get to be together. Please if you can hon, just give me another day with you. 

Time flew so fast, hon. Until now, I can't accept the fact that you are gone. In as much as I wouldn't want you to be sad, it's so hard hon. It's been such a struggle.  Thriving.  But I can't I just miss you so much.  Please see me in my dreams. Please talk to me. Please visit me. Enjoy heaven with AJ.  I love you 

Hon, it's been two months but the pain remains the same. I always picture that dreaded day until now. I always wished you coming home to us. I miss everything about you. Your silly jokes, your laugh, your hugs, yung pangungulit mo sa akin sa umaga, ung paghatid mo sa akin sa lobby ng office ko at ung pag-kiss mo sa cheeks ko every time maghihiwalay na tayo. I also miss the times when I can just talk to you about how my day went and how you will always have your ways to calm me down when I am so stressed and anxious. I miss the times when I go home and  you'll be the first person to meet me and carry the things I have with me. I miss kahit ung mga hindi maganda na minsan kinakapikon ko... I would give anything just to have more days, years with you, hon.  I am no longer excited about the weekends coz I am always reminded of the days we use to spend with the kids. We were so contented just staying at home and watch movies all day.  Just being together is all the matters. It's

Another occasion hon, without you. It's our eldest's 10th birthday. How we wish you are here with us celebrating. I feel down and lonely.  Another breakdown. 😭

Isa sa mga bagay na nami-miss ko is the time we get to work together. I remember the times yung hinahabol natin ung bundy clock kasi mala-late na tayo. When it's 5pm, sinusundo mo na ako sa office para masundo naman natin ang kiddos sa Creche then pupunta tayo sa office nyo so we will all go home together at 8pm. That was our routine. Tayo lang kasi ever since with the kids. Now it's gonna be all me, I don't even know if kaya ko. 😔  Going to work nowadays has been tough. Naalala kita palagi 😭  Naalala ko din in this picture how you would carry my bag lalo na pag mabigat na kasi ayaw mo ako nahihirapan. Hindi ka nahihiya. Miss na miss na kita hon....sobra. I miss even the smallest things about you.  Kung kaya ko lang talaga ibalik ang panahon, ibabalik ko makasama lang kita/namin ulit.  Mahal kita Jayson Supremo ❤️