Acceptance

Hon, 

I am still having a hard accepting that we will no longer be together. Just the thought of that breaks my heart into a million pieces but it's reality. A reality that I refuse to accept. 

I question God why we had to end this way. Why you had to leave without being given the chance to talk to you one last time. I hate myself. I hate myself for not being completely with you while you were in the ICU but I know, you know why but I still blame my self hon. 

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